For those who want a quick abbreviation of what I was going to discuss the title says everything. lol. As of the 20th of december I will have been on estrogen homone therapy for three months. Something that I wanted to take some time with them before I commented. It would have been easy for me to get on here and just start talking about my hopes for them and what I thought would be happening. Instead I gave myself some time and tried to avoid the hype of this new adventure.
For those interested in in the medical side of things I am currently taking 2MG tablets of Estrodial and 100MG tablets of Spironolactone. Estrodial is the estrogen pill and Spironolactone is the testosterone reducer. I take both once a day with food.
From day one I knew it was going to be an interesting go at it. I spent the first day in an odd fog that felt more like I had been drinking for an hour or so. That wasnt the responce I was hoping for at all. Luckily it did pass and by the second day it was more of normal me. After the fog of the first day the following weeks gave me a clarity and calm in my mind I dont think I have ever known before. Sure I have been relaxed and calm many times before. I used to meditate. This was more of an understanding of me and the world around me. For lack of a better term, I felt right. Not very descriptive I know, but that is exactly how I felt.
The first month saw something I was happy to have change. My labido had drastically dropped. I was never a very excitable person, but I did have my issues like many others. You are no spring chicken after 40 years as the saying goes. The issue of arousal by visual stimuli was gone entirely. I have found my ability to be aroused now seems to be almost solely focused on touch. I like this since it removes day to day aggrivations and keeps that exactly where it should be. With the one I love.
The second month is where things started changing for the more interesting. By the end of the first month my skin felt smooth and younger. More so my in my arms and chest than anywhere else, but the rest followed shortly. Clothing felt like fine fabrics brushing against my skin.
By the end of the second month my whole body felt alien yet familiar. After 40 years one gets used to and stops thinking about something as basic as their own skin texture. I was never one for manual labor so my skin had stayed soft for a long time. So when the hormones kicked in it was a difference of a high thread count cotton bedspread to silk. Easily noticed and welcomed happily as an unexpected surprise.
Towards the middle to end of the second month also saw something I didnt expect to see so fast. My chest had loosened already from my body and began swelling. Nothing major, but it was noticable. It makes the bra inserts I wear something I had yet to think about. There will come a time when they will be too akward to wear anymore and I will have to rely on my natural breasts.
There is a soreness that comes along with this as well. I am sure young girls are taught this when they take health class. I was not fortunate enough to learn this. Though I have no problem learning the hard way. It starts off as feeling like there is a growth under your nipple and then leads to some expansion. The growth does seem to change in size with everything else around it. Now at almost the third month mark I can say I easily have A-Cup breasts. Something very different than my body previously had.
The pain is also constant. From what I have read in many write ups. The breast pain will last about two or three years. I use the word pain but I will admit it isn’t really pain unless I lay on my stomach and chest. If it gets bad I find ice packs and ibuprofin work just fine. An odd observation is how my chest will hurt more at night. I am not sure why this is but it happens.
The only negative I can really comment on at this point is my lower back. I sufferend an injury years ago helping some one move. I tore a muscle in my back and it has never fully gone away. Though the irritation and pain from it seems to have gotten worse with the hormones. Nothing to debilitating but enough for me to take more frequent breaks.
I think this is all I really have to say at this point. As things develop (pun intended?) I will be posting more. I will also have more personal thoughts as well. For now. From your 40 year old stealth trans I say have a good week. 🙂